Practice of Letting Go

I often find that it is hard to let myself break the promises or not follow through on the choices I made. I think there is a sense that I am failing myself in some way. I recognize that this is a fear of letting go of the past, thinking that what I had decided in the past informs my present self.

I practice letting go. Starting with the small decisions is the first step in my practice that will hopefully allow me to let go of the larger ones, the ones I believed gave me security or informed who I am. It is not only possible but likely that what held value in my past is no longer valuable now.

It is a practice. Letting go sounds like something that you do once and you are done with it, but it is actually a series of decisions made daily. I let go of judgment toward myself, the desire to cling to what I had before, the frustrations of external situations not being what I hoped for. It requires a pause for reflection when I feel conflicted, to ask, what is it that I am unwilling to let go of?